Someone had labelled The Inner Slut as the first Filipina "pure-sex blogger." I discovered this only recently. Surprising, because the blog entry was made in February, 2006. Yes, I still think back to the days when TIS was alive and fucking. If she were still around today, she'd be aghast that I haven't been with a man for years. What a life.

I got an email from someone on a social networking site that I put up sometime after moving to Blogdrive. He wanted to meet me in person, presumably for a tryst. I very politely informed him that TIS has retired. Like I said in one of my last posts, this chapter of my life is now closed.

Then I got it in my head to Google the name, Emyn Galad, and lo and behold! Two entries citing TIS the blog appeared.

I have always received notes of appreciation from TIS readers and it has always floored me that people really "got off" on her experiences. More humbling is the realization that some readers actually got inspired by her candor. I don't know what to say.

When I looked at the night sky tonight upon reaching home, the stars were twinkling bright. No cloud in sight. It was the first time that I noticed the January sky over the Philippines and it was absolutely beautiful.

I'm not sure if TIS was looking at the same sky. Has she totally been reinvented or is she merely waiting for a good time to resurrect? I'm not sure. One thing I know, though, is that she has learned deep and mighty lessons in life the meaning of which are still unfolding as I write this.

My life would not have turned out such as it is without her courage and honesty. In the end, she dared dream and fall in love, just like any other woman, but was denied the happiness that would have come with such daring. I imagine her raising one eyebrow in disgust and withdrawing into the darkness. I still feel her now, as I admit to myself that my heart is sorely tried and weighed down with frustration, tired of dreaming happy dreams for myself. I can hear her from deep inside, whispering, "I told you so!"

In any case, TIS is no longer playing. The game has changed and she is no longer interested in coming out to play.

That's it!

I've transferred the TIS2005 blog to its new home. I only hope that hackers don't hack into it this time.